Yes, those are all good points Pooka but the fear is definitely the main factor for me... fear of the unknown and fear that I make the wrong decision somehow.
I'm going to try and not obsess over this too much and maybe give myself a break by doing something entirely different. My brother and SIL will be here today around four and I'm going to spend some time with them b/c I haven't seen my brother in years. I think this will be a good diversion.
Also, I talked yesterday with the gal from Shriners who is taking over my son's case and she felt pretty confident that we'd be heading to Portland some time in January. I'm going to try and remain calm and not freak out or scare myself to death until I actually talk to a specialist and get all the proper tests done. That is my rational mind talking but I know I can instantly flip back to being completely irrational and full of fear. One day at a time is what I need to do, just have trouble doing that.
I'm going to try and not obsess over this too much and maybe give myself a break by doing something entirely different. My brother and SIL will be here today around four and I'm going to spend some time with them b/c I haven't seen my brother in years. I think this will be a good diversion.
Also, I talked yesterday with the gal from Shriners who is taking over my son's case and she felt pretty confident that we'd be heading to Portland some time in January. I'm going to try and remain calm and not freak out or scare myself to death until I actually talk to a specialist and get all the proper tests done. That is my rational mind talking but I know I can instantly flip back to being completely irrational and full of fear. One day at a time is what I need to do, just have trouble doing that.
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