Let me start this by saying this is a venting and griping session, so please forgive me. But when I need to vent and gripe to people that understand, you all are my favorite victims.
I think there are several issues at work here. Switching from Oxycontin to Fentanyl has not been an easy switch. I understand the reasoning behind starting with the lowest dose of Fentanyl and working my way up to find the dose that is enough without being too much but, dude! I'm miserable here! I'm currently at 50mcg and have been since last Thursday and it's just not cuttin it. The flip side is even though it's not enough to cover the pain, it's making me so sleepy I'm about to fall asleep at my desk! I'm really hoping my pain management doc will up the dose for my next patch change. I may have to bring a sleeping bag and take a nap at lunch though. I'm also taking Percocet for "breakthrough pain" but the pain is breaking through all the time. What to do, what to do.
Even though I'm so sleepy all the time, I'm not sleeping worth a darn because I keep waking up in pain which I'm sure is contributing to the daytime tiredness. Every time I wake up at night hurting I blurt out some "colorful" language which in turn wakes up my husband. Bless his heart, he will scratch my head (something I absolutely ADORE!) or will very gently rub my neck until I go back to sleep or he falls asleep, whichever happens first. He's always back asleep much faster than I am, but I don't tell him that. I'm grateful for his sweetness.
This Saturday is Mom's Day at my daughter's sorority house, and we're having a garden party type brunch. Last night I made a stop at a department store by my house and tried on 5 or 6 different styles of dresses trying to find something to wear. Because of the way my back and torso are shaped now, I couldn't find a single dress that fit correctly. By the time I finished trying on the dresses I was too discouraged and tired to look for a skirt so I went home and ate half a package of Nutter Butter cookies. Yea, that's gonna help.
And to make matters even better, my office is feeling very tropical this week. The weather in Oklahoma City is so very humid and warm right now and I don't think the A/C in my office is working and there must be 1,000 people visiting the Capitol building today. All that combined makes it feel like a rain forest in this marble building.
Sorry to be such a downer today. I just need some relief from the pain and some answers to what my future holds. I'm so ready to do this revision but there are no guarantees it will make the pain any better. One day at a time I guess.
I think there are several issues at work here. Switching from Oxycontin to Fentanyl has not been an easy switch. I understand the reasoning behind starting with the lowest dose of Fentanyl and working my way up to find the dose that is enough without being too much but, dude! I'm miserable here! I'm currently at 50mcg and have been since last Thursday and it's just not cuttin it. The flip side is even though it's not enough to cover the pain, it's making me so sleepy I'm about to fall asleep at my desk! I'm really hoping my pain management doc will up the dose for my next patch change. I may have to bring a sleeping bag and take a nap at lunch though. I'm also taking Percocet for "breakthrough pain" but the pain is breaking through all the time. What to do, what to do.
Even though I'm so sleepy all the time, I'm not sleeping worth a darn because I keep waking up in pain which I'm sure is contributing to the daytime tiredness. Every time I wake up at night hurting I blurt out some "colorful" language which in turn wakes up my husband. Bless his heart, he will scratch my head (something I absolutely ADORE!) or will very gently rub my neck until I go back to sleep or he falls asleep, whichever happens first. He's always back asleep much faster than I am, but I don't tell him that. I'm grateful for his sweetness.
This Saturday is Mom's Day at my daughter's sorority house, and we're having a garden party type brunch. Last night I made a stop at a department store by my house and tried on 5 or 6 different styles of dresses trying to find something to wear. Because of the way my back and torso are shaped now, I couldn't find a single dress that fit correctly. By the time I finished trying on the dresses I was too discouraged and tired to look for a skirt so I went home and ate half a package of Nutter Butter cookies. Yea, that's gonna help.
And to make matters even better, my office is feeling very tropical this week. The weather in Oklahoma City is so very humid and warm right now and I don't think the A/C in my office is working and there must be 1,000 people visiting the Capitol building today. All that combined makes it feel like a rain forest in this marble building.
Sorry to be such a downer today. I just need some relief from the pain and some answers to what my future holds. I'm so ready to do this revision but there are no guarantees it will make the pain any better. One day at a time I guess.
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