Im 3 years post op on the 4th November and I fear I'm heading towards hardware removal. I've tried so hard to accept and live with this pain and discomfort but I'm thinking long term and I can't live like this.
I get up in the morning so sore from lying on my back all night-I can't sleep on my sides because its too painful. Then I get the pulling and digging, by lunchtime the pressure starts and if I don't lie down I end up in dreadful pain. If I have to do something that involves leaning forwards-such as most things! It feels as though my hardware is cutting into my muscles then I feel as though I'm walking around with a knife in my back, it also feels as though a big pair of hands are squeezing me around my torso and if I'm walking it hurts to take a deep breath-this can't be right can it?
I wrote to my surgeon detailing how I feel and he said he is confident that it is my hardware-mainly the protruding screws and he will remove it if that's what I want but of course there are no guarantees.
I so so wanted to keep my hardware in, I feel as though its my security blanket but my body obviously doesn't want it. I keep asking myself-why me? There are many people who seem to bet on with their lives with no problems like this. I just feel so damn unlucky.
I get up in the morning so sore from lying on my back all night-I can't sleep on my sides because its too painful. Then I get the pulling and digging, by lunchtime the pressure starts and if I don't lie down I end up in dreadful pain. If I have to do something that involves leaning forwards-such as most things! It feels as though my hardware is cutting into my muscles then I feel as though I'm walking around with a knife in my back, it also feels as though a big pair of hands are squeezing me around my torso and if I'm walking it hurts to take a deep breath-this can't be right can it?
I wrote to my surgeon detailing how I feel and he said he is confident that it is my hardware-mainly the protruding screws and he will remove it if that's what I want but of course there are no guarantees.
I so so wanted to keep my hardware in, I feel as though its my security blanket but my body obviously doesn't want it. I keep asking myself-why me? There are many people who seem to bet on with their lives with no problems like this. I just feel so damn unlucky.
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