Depressing choices
Trying to feel more confident about surgery. Part, well most of me wants to back out. When I feel ok, I think that maybe the X-ray is wrong and that I don't have degeneration. I do believe that I have a stenosis since my butt and thigh hurt when I stand or walk. I only had one visit with Dr. Hu, maybe I need her reassurance that things are as bad as I think that they are.
As I figure it, maybe I have 2 choices:
- to not have surgery and possibly watch my discs degenerate and my vertebrae become more stenotic. Then maybe need surgery when I get worse and am older ( new readers, I am already old!). But maybe, maybe I could be OK without surgery.
- to have surgery means that I will have the change and inconvenience of fusion from T3 to sacrum. Pain after one year and for the rest of my life could be more pain, the same pain, or maybe less pain or no pain. Maybe I will have more disability or maybe my number was up and I am the 1 of 100 that Dr. Hu gave me as statistics for death at my age with my projected surgery.
Maybe I should meet again with Dr. Hu. Where is my confidence? (Curse word deleted)
Susan
Trying to feel more confident about surgery. Part, well most of me wants to back out. When I feel ok, I think that maybe the X-ray is wrong and that I don't have degeneration. I do believe that I have a stenosis since my butt and thigh hurt when I stand or walk. I only had one visit with Dr. Hu, maybe I need her reassurance that things are as bad as I think that they are.
As I figure it, maybe I have 2 choices:
- to not have surgery and possibly watch my discs degenerate and my vertebrae become more stenotic. Then maybe need surgery when I get worse and am older ( new readers, I am already old!). But maybe, maybe I could be OK without surgery.
- to have surgery means that I will have the change and inconvenience of fusion from T3 to sacrum. Pain after one year and for the rest of my life could be more pain, the same pain, or maybe less pain or no pain. Maybe I will have more disability or maybe my number was up and I am the 1 of 100 that Dr. Hu gave me as statistics for death at my age with my projected surgery.
Maybe I should meet again with Dr. Hu. Where is my confidence? (Curse word deleted)
Susan
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