I went to see Dr Vora at Hershey Medical yesterday for my pre-op appt. And well, I am now freaking out that something will go wrong! Things I am freaked out about:
He said my spine is rigid and that he only expects 50-60% correction ( I was hoping for a better correction since one of my "incentives" was having a better looking body-not that I am doing this for cosmetic reasons, the idea helped me with coping with what is to come). Right now my curve is 60 degrees- I am hoping I see a difference..........
I had to sign a disclosure stating that there is no guarantee that my surgery will be successful and I could actually get worse. I know these are typical things that you have to sign before having a major surgery, but the idea still freaks me out! Yes I am in pain almost everyday, but I can still work and live a good life. I am afraid I will mess up the life I have now for no reason. I am afraid I will be worse off.
The are putting a tube through my artery to keep track of my blood pressure at all times. Besides already dealing with my spine, I am afraid that someone will mess up. I know it sounds silly, since these are experienced doctors but still...
I am so unsure about everything and its stressing me out. I know in the end I should get the surgery, but I need to put my mind at ease because I am stressing myself out. If anyone can give me any encouragement, I would greatly appreciate it!
He said my spine is rigid and that he only expects 50-60% correction ( I was hoping for a better correction since one of my "incentives" was having a better looking body-not that I am doing this for cosmetic reasons, the idea helped me with coping with what is to come). Right now my curve is 60 degrees- I am hoping I see a difference..........
I had to sign a disclosure stating that there is no guarantee that my surgery will be successful and I could actually get worse. I know these are typical things that you have to sign before having a major surgery, but the idea still freaks me out! Yes I am in pain almost everyday, but I can still work and live a good life. I am afraid I will mess up the life I have now for no reason. I am afraid I will be worse off.
The are putting a tube through my artery to keep track of my blood pressure at all times. Besides already dealing with my spine, I am afraid that someone will mess up. I know it sounds silly, since these are experienced doctors but still...
I am so unsure about everything and its stressing me out. I know in the end I should get the surgery, but I need to put my mind at ease because I am stressing myself out. If anyone can give me any encouragement, I would greatly appreciate it!
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