Hey everyone. It's me again. Tomorrow I will offically have my brace for 1 week. YEA!!! So I am super sore everywhere and I feel like crying as I write this. I have broken down every day this week. It is so hard. I hate it when people say, "I understand how you feel." The thing is that no one can understand unless they have a brace like most of us do on here. I wish that all of this would go away. I have to go shopping to get all larger sizes. I can't wear all of my nice cool clothes. I can't wear anything I got for christmas and if I try it ends up tearing. Almost every night I have cryed myself to sleep just wishing that when I wake up I will find out that this is all a dream, that none of this is happening and that I could go back to the way everything was. I was one of the pretest girl and I was always complimented by guys on my body. Now most people look at me with disgust. I feel ugly now more then I ever hoped to feel. Every night I think 'why me? why now? this can not be happening' the truth that I plainly know is that it is and it won't go away by me sleeping it off. This thing makes my back hurt and me cry. It makes me not hungry and I have lost weight. I feel that nothing will ever be the same again.
As you guys can see, I am breaking down here. So please someone help me. I can't stand another night of crying myself to sleep, the pain, and the way that people look at me now. Please comment, respond, give advice, anyone just help me throught the times now and the times that I know are to come! God bless you all that have a brace and are brave enough not to complain as much as I did. Please remember me in your prayers as I will with everyone out there that cry's themselves to sleep.
As you guys can see, I am breaking down here. So please someone help me. I can't stand another night of crying myself to sleep, the pain, and the way that people look at me now. Please comment, respond, give advice, anyone just help me throught the times now and the times that I know are to come! God bless you all that have a brace and are brave enough not to complain as much as I did. Please remember me in your prayers as I will with everyone out there that cry's themselves to sleep.
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