hi my name is julia. i had spine surgery (harrington rods and fusion with donar bone) on january 6th. im 22 years old, i've been smashed between two cars, stabbed straight through two fingers, and had a baby. the back surgery was by far the worst pain. i tried to commit suicide in the hospital, i just couldnt handle the pain. thay later found out that for some reason morphine doesnt work for me.
its almost been 5 months now and i feel like im broken. does anyone else feel like this? is it normal. i thought by now i would be back to normal but im in more pain than before the surgery, was it a huge mistake?
im so scared that ill never regain feeling in my back and ill never be able to do the things i once did.i'm also scared that my body will reject the donar bone, i would rather die than have surgery again. does anyone have any advice for me??
the dr. never told me it would be so bad...
its almost been 5 months now and i feel like im broken. does anyone else feel like this? is it normal. i thought by now i would be back to normal but im in more pain than before the surgery, was it a huge mistake?
im so scared that ill never regain feeling in my back and ill never be able to do the things i once did.i'm also scared that my body will reject the donar bone, i would rather die than have surgery again. does anyone have any advice for me??
the dr. never told me it would be so bad...
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