I just wanted to let you all know that Patrick's surgery date is finally arriving on May 16th. I have a constant feeling of butterflies in my stomach and am feeling very panicky like I should be doing something but don't know what. It seemed so far away at one time and now the day is practically here. This whole thing has such a surreal feel to it that sometimes I wonder if I'm not just dreaming that my child will be having scoliosis surgery. Man, how does anyone sleep the last few nights. I have been drifting off to sleep the last few nights and then I will jolt wide awake thinking nasty operation thoughts. How do you get past this or is it just something that has to happen?
I envision myself totally loosing it the morning of the surgery and dragging my son off the operating table. I know I won't do this but the thought is there. I am feeling so emotionally drained with all the waiting and anticipation and sadness and helplessness. I should be the strong one here and I do try to be for the sake of Patrick, but really , he has me beat on strength. He is my little hero and I pray for him to recover fast and uneventfully. I will let you know when I can how he is doing. Thank-you to all who gave such great advice and guidance along our journey.
Ramona
I envision myself totally loosing it the morning of the surgery and dragging my son off the operating table. I know I won't do this but the thought is there. I am feeling so emotionally drained with all the waiting and anticipation and sadness and helplessness. I should be the strong one here and I do try to be for the sake of Patrick, but really , he has me beat on strength. He is my little hero and I pray for him to recover fast and uneventfully. I will let you know when I can how he is doing. Thank-you to all who gave such great advice and guidance along our journey.
Ramona
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