Hello everyone, I am just about 6 months post-op and finally feeling like there is life after spinal fusion. I have had a rough go of it...I really thought I was invincible and would heal more quickly than proposed, found out I'm not...quite humbling this experience has been. I slipped into a little 'funk' for a while and began to feel sorry for myself and jealous and angry at people around me because they couldn't understand and didn't have to go through it. I have different outlooks on things in life now, I used to get worked up over the smallest things and now I am so much more laid back...I hope some of you can understand where I am coming from with this....it's like if I can get through this, I can get through ANYTHING, I have lost alot of the fears I used to have pre-surgery. At first I was angry with having to find 'new' ways to do things, now I am finding how creative I am. We should have a sticky thread with ideas for people on new ways to do things, for instance I can cut my own toenails somewhat but only if I lay on my back and cross my ankle on one leg over on the opposite knee. It would be interesting to learn new ways that have worked for others, each time I find a way to do something I thought I couldn't it is sooo liberating. Somedays it's one step forward and two steps back but I realize this really does take a year at the least to heal, and I am finally coming to terms with it. I am going back to work on Monday, I wish I felt more ready...I have been feeling better but not as well as I'd like, I am just so impaitient! I am so thankful to the caring people on here who have tried to reach out to me, thank you.
For all of those awaiting surgery...my advice to you would be, put trust in your surgeon and just...let go...working yourself up over all the 'what if's' will only drive you crazy and after you are on the otherside, whatever will be will be...you will take things one day at a time and realize that you can plan all you want but you will never be ready for everything, this surgery is no picnic, but if you need it...IT IS NECESSARY and if you think about it there is no way you can possibly regret trying with all your might....to save your future.
For all of those awaiting surgery...my advice to you would be, put trust in your surgeon and just...let go...working yourself up over all the 'what if's' will only drive you crazy and after you are on the otherside, whatever will be will be...you will take things one day at a time and realize that you can plan all you want but you will never be ready for everything, this surgery is no picnic, but if you need it...IT IS NECESSARY and if you think about it there is no way you can possibly regret trying with all your might....to save your future.
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