It's been a long weekend.
After I got all the calls confirming my surgery for 12/21. I got a call from Doc Herkowitz office saying they have to reschedule me to Jan 31st. I broke down crying. why, because I have to wait more than a month more to have this done.
i am about to vent guys so don't continue on if you don't want to here any whinng.
I am in pain DAILY. the most pain free i have been is every once in a while i will have 3-5 hours after pain meds have worn off. I am on Oxycodone as needed or 1 every 4-6 hours. Many of you know how afraid i am of becoming depenant on this drugs. Well since my last message regarding that I gave in to taking my pills when needed. it has really helped my pain.
However, my days are spent mostly in bed, i don't want to eat as much anymore or i am sleeping. I am 34 years old, i am yound and this is NOT the way i want to live my life.
After a real bad night of pain, i get this depressed feeling that last well into the following day. Nothing I do can shake this feeling. I feel so scared when this pain comes on that It makes me cry just thinking about it the next day.
I have never in my life experienced anything like this and to find out I have to wait more than another month, it makes me wonder just how strong I am.
WHEN I AM IN PAIN I FEEL
scared-
alone -how is this possible when i have people around me
like i am fighting a battle with pain and it gives me relif only after its done with me.
PAIN- is the most scariest and lonliest place on earth. you are alone in your own mind and body. you want out but you only get minutes of relif from pain meds.
I will wait i have to continue this battle. I do not want to go on antidepression pills so...
even as time goes on it's getting harder and I have my boys and my husband to keep me from going insane.
After I got all the calls confirming my surgery for 12/21. I got a call from Doc Herkowitz office saying they have to reschedule me to Jan 31st. I broke down crying. why, because I have to wait more than a month more to have this done.
i am about to vent guys so don't continue on if you don't want to here any whinng.
I am in pain DAILY. the most pain free i have been is every once in a while i will have 3-5 hours after pain meds have worn off. I am on Oxycodone as needed or 1 every 4-6 hours. Many of you know how afraid i am of becoming depenant on this drugs. Well since my last message regarding that I gave in to taking my pills when needed. it has really helped my pain.
However, my days are spent mostly in bed, i don't want to eat as much anymore or i am sleeping. I am 34 years old, i am yound and this is NOT the way i want to live my life.
After a real bad night of pain, i get this depressed feeling that last well into the following day. Nothing I do can shake this feeling. I feel so scared when this pain comes on that It makes me cry just thinking about it the next day.
I have never in my life experienced anything like this and to find out I have to wait more than another month, it makes me wonder just how strong I am.
WHEN I AM IN PAIN I FEEL
scared-
alone -how is this possible when i have people around me
like i am fighting a battle with pain and it gives me relif only after its done with me.
PAIN- is the most scariest and lonliest place on earth. you are alone in your own mind and body. you want out but you only get minutes of relif from pain meds.
I will wait i have to continue this battle. I do not want to go on antidepression pills so...
even as time goes on it's getting harder and I have my boys and my husband to keep me from going insane.
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