Well, here I am - - just 5 days out from undergoing the first of two surgeries. As most of you know, the first will be 1/24 and the second a week later on 1/31. I have been on this "Anticipation Roller Coaster" for 3 months and now it's coming to an end...the ride is ending but the JOURNEY is just beginning...this second (or in my case 3rd & 4th) leg of the journey is just 5 days away. I am filled with a sense of peace about my decision to do this - my pain is just too much some days - I have great faith in my surgeon (and my God) and i trust that God will guide his hands and quiet my fears so that I can get through this and finally be on the "other side" after 3 months of worrying, second-guessing and extreme anxiety. Don't get me wrong: I am still VERY anxious about what is about to happen - being away from my two little ones for such a long period of time is just a really tough thought that i struggle with - I have high anxiety about the anesthesia given the problems i had with my 1995 surgery - and of course, I'm anxious about the outcome, which my sugeon suggests would be a success if he were able to give me a 50-60% reduction in pain. In my eyes, that would be miraculous!
So with that, I'm "there" mentally - I'm "ready" physically and spiritually - let's DO this so that I can finally move on with my life and enjoy my family once again!
So with that, I'm "there" mentally - I'm "ready" physically and spiritually - let's DO this so that I can finally move on with my life and enjoy my family once again!
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