Jess, I really feel for you, and any others out there in the same place. You have been just trying to balance the reality of your situation, with the uncertainty of an imagined outcome. You wonder if surgery will help you, or if your particular case may be one of those few that don't turn out so well. It is really tough. Sometimes is seems like the evil you know is more tolerable than the evil you DON'T know. I always felt more comfortable living with the pain that I knew and could deal with, rather than risking something worse. I agonized for years and totally understand.
I can't and won't tell you what to do, but I WILL say that when the time comes, I truly believe that you will know it in your gut. This goes for all of you in the pre-op stage. Something just pushes you over the edge. And when you know in your heart that it is finally time to do it, the agonizing just goes away and peace and acceptance follows. It was almost a sort of relief for me, no longer having to worry about whether I should do it or not... Uncertainty drives you insane....
And now look at me!!!!! No regrets at all. (Other than waiting a year too long) Life goes on, and goes on with a better quality of life than before.
The best of wishes to ALL of you during this time of wrestling with the decision.
I can't and won't tell you what to do, but I WILL say that when the time comes, I truly believe that you will know it in your gut. This goes for all of you in the pre-op stage. Something just pushes you over the edge. And when you know in your heart that it is finally time to do it, the agonizing just goes away and peace and acceptance follows. It was almost a sort of relief for me, no longer having to worry about whether I should do it or not... Uncertainty drives you insane....
And now look at me!!!!! No regrets at all. (Other than waiting a year too long) Life goes on, and goes on with a better quality of life than before.
The best of wishes to ALL of you during this time of wrestling with the decision.
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