i've been wearing the brace for like...1 1/2 years now...i think. ^_-
and im still not used to it~! i started with a 38 degree top curve...and 25 bottom. and then i got the xray again mm...3 months later, and it was down to top 8 degrees and bottom 4 degrees, and i figured oh...its ok now, just like 1 more month. and then from that time to the next appointment...i just wore it to sleep and my parents thought it was ok too, and the next time i got its up to 26 and 22, so i got really sad and my parents got really mad, and all that stuff. so i wore it well for about a year and during all that time it went back and stayed around 8 and 3...and then during the summer...coz i love church i totally love it, and i went on a mission trip to mexico to spread the word and all that good stuff. 11-day trip. and the next apointment i was at 38 and 29. worse than when i started. and ever since mexico it was so hard to adjust again. now i pretend i wear it to school. and just wear it at home, church, and sleeping. which is like....16 hours about. and i know thats not good enough...and they said i would get surgery if i kept goin like this....but its so hard, and i dont know what to do anymore. i still have 3 years left in this thing. and sometimes it just annoys me that im letting this molded piece of plastic ruin my youth....you know? and sometimes i cry, sometimes i scream at God, coz i wanna know why He gave me this, and a lot of times i scream at my parents because they both had scoliosis in their families, and so its because of their genes and stuff i have it, and niether of them ever had a brace so it just really annoys me. ..and this is not fair coz im only 13 and this totally killed my preteen years and its gonn ruin everything...prom, sweet sixteen, dating.....all that..ughhh..2 years ago my faith was so amazing. i was ready to jump of a cliff in a second if it was what God wanted....all that good stuff. but now......its just the dragging life. with a lot of tears
and im still not used to it~! i started with a 38 degree top curve...and 25 bottom. and then i got the xray again mm...3 months later, and it was down to top 8 degrees and bottom 4 degrees, and i figured oh...its ok now, just like 1 more month. and then from that time to the next appointment...i just wore it to sleep and my parents thought it was ok too, and the next time i got its up to 26 and 22, so i got really sad and my parents got really mad, and all that stuff. so i wore it well for about a year and during all that time it went back and stayed around 8 and 3...and then during the summer...coz i love church i totally love it, and i went on a mission trip to mexico to spread the word and all that good stuff. 11-day trip. and the next apointment i was at 38 and 29. worse than when i started. and ever since mexico it was so hard to adjust again. now i pretend i wear it to school. and just wear it at home, church, and sleeping. which is like....16 hours about. and i know thats not good enough...and they said i would get surgery if i kept goin like this....but its so hard, and i dont know what to do anymore. i still have 3 years left in this thing. and sometimes it just annoys me that im letting this molded piece of plastic ruin my youth....you know? and sometimes i cry, sometimes i scream at God, coz i wanna know why He gave me this, and a lot of times i scream at my parents because they both had scoliosis in their families, and so its because of their genes and stuff i have it, and niether of them ever had a brace so it just really annoys me. ..and this is not fair coz im only 13 and this totally killed my preteen years and its gonn ruin everything...prom, sweet sixteen, dating.....all that..ughhh..2 years ago my faith was so amazing. i was ready to jump of a cliff in a second if it was what God wanted....all that good stuff. but now......its just the dragging life. with a lot of tears
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