Here it is 4:30am and I am awake. I am awake from the pain for which I cannot get anything for another 1.5 hours. I do not recall when I have had pain this bad and could not get anything for it. I feel so alone. My husband has finally lost it or I am just tired of living this like. One day this week, I think that it was Wednesday I checked my checking account and found that he had taken $27 without my permission . So I texted him about it and he said that he was going to ask my permission that night when he comes to the hospital. So that night he shows up at the hospital with Chinese food for himself and did not bring me anything. So we are sitting there and eating our dinner and he keeps asking me what is wrong . So I finally told him how angry I am with him , which is a no-no. In 29 years of marriage, he has never accepted that he might be responsible for a situation.He , of course , turns it on me and I start crying. So he does what he always does in these situations;which is nothing. He continues eating and watching TV. So Thursday night he comes and acts like nothing is wrong, which means he brings in his dinner , eats it and watches TV and then leaves to go home. Last night, he shows up without any dinner . I ask him why and he tells me that it is because of my big mouth . He says that means I won't complain because of what he gets to eat for himself. So the nurse sees that he is not eating and sees that I has way too much food so she asks me if he can have it. What can I say except yes. I know what he is mad about but will not mention is the fact that he has alot of driving to do because he cannot spend nights at rehab and therefore he has to interact with our son Jarret whom he hates.I know what I have to do is leave him but then I think of the good times. The problem is the good times are less and less. I am still in so much pain which I do not what is all about. Before he left last night, he asks me if I have my schedule for the next day He knows that the schedule comes out in the morning, . Just another something for him to complain about. I am also stressed about the other surgery that my surgeon wants me to have as I will not be able to drive for another 4 weeks .
Thanks for listening
Melissa
Thanks for listening
Melissa
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