I am finally going to make an appt to see my Ortho doc after about 3 years. Yes, my lateral curve is better due to the monstrous surgery and recovery, but now I'm struggling to stand straight from front to back. I can't walk any distance in comfort without the support of a cane, shopping cart, my hubby's hand etc. And for the last 2 years or so the area above my original surgery (t-5 to one above the sacrum..L4?) I've forgotten the lingo after all this time..) has gotten much worse to the point that I have to struggle to hold my head erect, thus putting strain on my upper back and causing pain and making me feel much more deformed than I ever was. At 58 years old and prone to depression and anxiety anyway, this is really getting me down. I have joined Curves and am excercising regularly to try to get my muscles to support me. So far I have lost almost 8 pounds in 7 months (I'm now 5'1/2 and 120 lbs) and the rest of my body is looking and feeling better, but my back and neck are just hurting more. I just feel like crying. I guess the only reasons any of us would go through this huge surgery is to A. Be rid of random/constant pain and B. To look more "normal." I have traded one pain for the other, and I am more deformed than I ever was.
Thanks for letting me vent. I am sad tonight and wanted to share it with those who might understand.
Sharona
Thanks for letting me vent. I am sad tonight and wanted to share it with those who might understand.
Sharona
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