It's almost time for my surgery (L4-S1) on January 21. I'm really starting to get nervous. My poor husband's stomach is a mess from stress! We finally told my 8 year old and she handled it beautifully. She said "I'm sad but it will be good when Mommy can do more things." I think that's the attitude I need to take. In my good moments I do, in my bad moments...well, let's say it's just harder. I feel like there's so much to do to prepare logistically, but then again not that much to do. Work is keeping me very busy. I feel like I have nothing else but this on my mind and I'm very boring to be around these days. It's just all consuming, My biggest fears are death, paralysis, the effects of limited movement, and not having any pain reduction in the long run. I try very hard to focus on the positive, but it gets to me sometimes. It feels like my life will be divided into "before the surgery" and "after the surgery." It's hard not knowing what the "after" part will feel like.
For those who wore a brace when you were an adolescent, does the fusion feel like that in terms of limited movement? I'm having a hard time imagining what it will be like. I wore a brace for 2 years, so I know what that feels like. I really hope it's different, because feeling like that for the rest of my life is not a good thing.
For those who wore a brace when you were an adolescent, does the fusion feel like that in terms of limited movement? I'm having a hard time imagining what it will be like. I wore a brace for 2 years, so I know what that feels like. I really hope it's different, because feeling like that for the rest of my life is not a good thing.
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