Hello.
I was diagnosed with scoliosis when I was seventeen with a 40 degree curve in my lower spine and a 29 degree curve between my shoulder blades. I remember going to the hospital more times then I can count and walking out feeling the same emotion. Anger. I was angry at my parents, I was angry at the hospital and more then anything else I was angry at my body. I didn't understand why I was going to the hospital only to hear, "You have Scoliosis...and you have back pain...but there isn't anything we can do about it except maybe tell you to take pain killers."
I gave up going when I was nineteen. I just couldn't find the will in myself to walk back through those hospital doors only to hear what I already knew. Now that I am twenty one it's getting hard to sleep and I don't know if my back has gotten worse or not at all. I also moved and don't know where to go to see, or if I even have the will to do this all over again. I wanted surgery so bad when I was younger and I still do. I don't think I have the guts to hear, "That's not the best option" again.
I don't really know what I am asking for, maybe just talk with people that know how I feel, know that there are people out there like me that have a hard time sleeping...and an even harder time looking in the mirror and clothes shopping.
Rainya
I was diagnosed with scoliosis when I was seventeen with a 40 degree curve in my lower spine and a 29 degree curve between my shoulder blades. I remember going to the hospital more times then I can count and walking out feeling the same emotion. Anger. I was angry at my parents, I was angry at the hospital and more then anything else I was angry at my body. I didn't understand why I was going to the hospital only to hear, "You have Scoliosis...and you have back pain...but there isn't anything we can do about it except maybe tell you to take pain killers."
I gave up going when I was nineteen. I just couldn't find the will in myself to walk back through those hospital doors only to hear what I already knew. Now that I am twenty one it's getting hard to sleep and I don't know if my back has gotten worse or not at all. I also moved and don't know where to go to see, or if I even have the will to do this all over again. I wanted surgery so bad when I was younger and I still do. I don't think I have the guts to hear, "That's not the best option" again.
I don't really know what I am asking for, maybe just talk with people that know how I feel, know that there are people out there like me that have a hard time sleeping...and an even harder time looking in the mirror and clothes shopping.
Rainya
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