I just couldn't commit. Instead, I went back and forth for years on doctors and timing. I think it was mostly fear of actually going through with it, coupled with not actually finding a surgeon I was 100% comfortable with. I'm now fully set with Dr. Lenke as I mentioned here, he is in NY now too which helps given my family is here, so I have no more excuses on this front.
Originally I was actually scheduled for October 25th but had to push it back because my sister got pregnant, her due date is shortly after that original October date, and my mom couldn't help us both out (smiley face). Also I kind of want to be around to see the kid born and not be bound to a bed essentially.
Anyway, now that I've actually committed, I tend to have moments where I freak out and wonder if I'm making a bad decision. Some things that worry me:
- One big thing that bothers me is that I find it takes me a while to recover from broken bones. I don't know what that is. For example, I broke my hand a few years ago and still feel pain there, but maybe that is just a factor of it healing incorrectly or something.
- January is cold season out here. Best idea to get surgery done and recover in the cold, snow and ice?
- The other big thing I think about. How will I be different? What if I can't fly anymore long-haul trips (which is a large part of my life)? And just other random things I think about not being able to do anymore.
Even though I don't post here much, I read a lot and think this forum is just wonderful. Thanks to all for your stories and helping those like myself who are trying to navigate those unknown waters.
Originally I was actually scheduled for October 25th but had to push it back because my sister got pregnant, her due date is shortly after that original October date, and my mom couldn't help us both out (smiley face). Also I kind of want to be around to see the kid born and not be bound to a bed essentially.
Anyway, now that I've actually committed, I tend to have moments where I freak out and wonder if I'm making a bad decision. Some things that worry me:
- One big thing that bothers me is that I find it takes me a while to recover from broken bones. I don't know what that is. For example, I broke my hand a few years ago and still feel pain there, but maybe that is just a factor of it healing incorrectly or something.
- January is cold season out here. Best idea to get surgery done and recover in the cold, snow and ice?
- The other big thing I think about. How will I be different? What if I can't fly anymore long-haul trips (which is a large part of my life)? And just other random things I think about not being able to do anymore.
Even though I don't post here much, I read a lot and think this forum is just wonderful. Thanks to all for your stories and helping those like myself who are trying to navigate those unknown waters.
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