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Spring72
06-29-2012, 11:19 AM
Hello everyone, I am just about 6 months post-op and finally feeling like there is life after spinal fusion. I have had a rough go of it...I really thought I was invincible and would heal more quickly than proposed, found out I'm not...quite humbling this experience has been. I slipped into a little 'funk' for a while and began to feel sorry for myself and jealous and angry at people around me because they couldn't understand and didn't have to go through it. I have different outlooks on things in life now, I used to get worked up over the smallest things and now I am so much more laid back...I hope some of you can understand where I am coming from with this....it's like if I can get through this, I can get through ANYTHING, I have lost alot of the fears I used to have pre-surgery. At first I was angry with having to find 'new' ways to do things, now I am finding how creative I am. We should have a sticky thread with ideas for people on new ways to do things, for instance I can cut my own toenails somewhat but only if I lay on my back and cross my ankle on one leg over on the opposite knee. It would be interesting to learn new ways that have worked for others, each time I find a way to do something I thought I couldn't it is sooo liberating. Somedays it's one step forward and two steps back but I realize this really does take a year at the least to heal, and I am finally coming to terms with it. I am going back to work on Monday, I wish I felt more ready...I have been feeling better but not as well as I'd like, I am just so impaitient! I am so thankful to the caring people on here who have tried to reach out to me, thank you.
For all of those awaiting surgery...my advice to you would be, put trust in your surgeon and just...let go...working yourself up over all the 'what if's' will only drive you crazy and after you are on the otherside, whatever will be will be...you will take things one day at a time and realize that you can plan all you want but you will never be ready for everything, this surgery is no picnic, but if you need it...IT IS NECESSARY and if you think about it there is no way you can possibly regret trying with all your might....to save your future.

TwinmomTN
06-29-2012, 11:59 AM
Spring,

Good to hear that you are on the mend and ready to get on with life. I understand the frustration of not being further ahead in recovery. I am 10 weeks post op today and have had my own setbacks that I am dealing with as well, mainly nerve pain currently which is affecting my activity level. It is difficult to see others around us getting on with life and not understanding what we are going through. It's hard to see my family going on canoe trips, etc. while I am left at home. To see that you are getting back to life gives us following behind hope of returning to normal life one day. Best of luck to you starting back to work on Monday.

Pam

Doodles
06-29-2012, 01:05 PM
Spring--
Congrats on being 6 months post surgery. You have written a very profound statement about what many of us feel after and before surgery--some more than others. But it very honestly portrays what it's all about. Thank you and good luck. Janet

JenniferG
06-29-2012, 05:09 PM
Absolutely. This surgery is a lot of things, but one way or another, it's definitely a growth period!

golfnut
06-29-2012, 07:28 PM
Hi, Spring,
It is soooo good to hear from you. I was just thinking today that I needed to send you an email and check up on you. You sound so good. Best of luck in going back to work. I can tell you that I am better today at 1 1/2 years than I was at a year, so expect to keep feeling better and better.

ADMoul
06-29-2012, 08:17 PM
Glad you've reached the 6 month milestone and that things are going better for you. This whole journey is a growing experience in so many ways beyond that extra inch or two we gain physically. My surgery changed my entire perspective and outlook on life (in a positive way) but it's a slow process and Lord knows it's not easy! Keep talking to your forum friends esp. if you're having a rough day and you're frustrated. We have all been there! I'm over two years out and I can tell you it just keeps getting better. Best wishes for continued healing!

Irina
06-29-2012, 10:25 PM
Hi Spring,

What a good advice about letting go and driving yourself crazy over "what-ifs"... Glad to hear you're doing well and hope you'll keep getting better and better.

susancook
06-30-2012, 04:05 AM
Hi Spring: I too like you comment about not getting too worked uo about the "what ifs". I have had back pain for only a year and was diagnosed last August. The pain is getting progressively worse and I'm not sure if and when I should have surgery. Your comments have given me alot to think about. Thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts. As I read the blog it seems that it does take quite a while to heal, so I imagine that at 1 year, your life will be better. Take care and keep up those positive thoughts.
Susan

rockycarm
06-30-2012, 06:00 AM
Hi Everyone,

thank you all for posting and your experiences. I am 6 weeks post op with a T9 to sacrum fusion and I too am a positive person, however, at times I find myself going over to the dark side and putting bad thoughts in my head which I try to push out and trust that God is with me and will get through this. I too have gained about 2" in height, no longer have to pull my bra down constantly, can wear shirts without a problem. My recovery however is being hindered by some right legged weakness which is being checked out. I will not be able to drive until this is resolved so keep your fingers crossed that this can be resolved. I am becoming a bit impatient and need to seriously get into my head that this takes time. I am so used to being there for everyone and not being able to do the things I used to do right now can become frustrating. I need to put the "what if's" out of my head and all of your input helps me put things into perspective, so thank you.

Spring72
06-30-2012, 09:39 PM
Thank you ladies....it is a good feeling to know that if we are all stuck in the same boat, at least we aren't in it alone :)