It's been about 6 1/2 weeks since my initial surgery of a T3 - L3 spinal fusion and about 5 weeks since the doctor went back in to debride the spine and remove the bone graft due to a possible infection. I've been on heavy duty IV antibiotics at home since the second surgery which have made me feel yucky. I will go back to surgery in two weeks (August 16) to have my bone graft (hopefully) replaced.
It seems like I've hit a setback during the last week. If I didn't have to go back to surgery and start recovery from square one, I think I would be a lot more motivated. The anitibiotics also seem to suck the energy out of me. It has been an internal struggle to make myself get up and do therapy. It is so much "easier" to just lay around and sleep. This hint of depression is not like me and I HATE feeling this way. I know that part of it also is that this week will be my Mom's first birthday and anniversary since my Dad passed away unexpectedly in December. It has been difficult for me (and my siblings) to see my Mom dealing with the emotions of these "firsts" without her husband.
I do want to clarify that I am not, by any means, depressed enough to warrant medical attention, I just needed to vent to someone who's been through a recovery like this. What are some of the things you did to help "get over" the ruts during your long recovery period?
It seems like I've hit a setback during the last week. If I didn't have to go back to surgery and start recovery from square one, I think I would be a lot more motivated. The anitibiotics also seem to suck the energy out of me. It has been an internal struggle to make myself get up and do therapy. It is so much "easier" to just lay around and sleep. This hint of depression is not like me and I HATE feeling this way. I know that part of it also is that this week will be my Mom's first birthday and anniversary since my Dad passed away unexpectedly in December. It has been difficult for me (and my siblings) to see my Mom dealing with the emotions of these "firsts" without her husband.
I do want to clarify that I am not, by any means, depressed enough to warrant medical attention, I just needed to vent to someone who's been through a recovery like this. What are some of the things you did to help "get over" the ruts during your long recovery period?
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